Happy birthday my sweet Clover…this post is going to go on for miles and miles and quite possibly make you hungry

Everyone who is my friend of FB already knows it was Chloe’s 21st birthday yesterday because I went on and on about it practically all day.

But just in case you missed it, or if you’re not on my FB, (why on earth not… come be my friend), then here is a little look back at this most wonderful day.

I drove up to C’s university and grabbed her and her friend Taylor for lunch at our local favorite restaurant Burgoo. Kerstie and the babies joined us…

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… and Binky gave C her prezzies.
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We shared Burgoo’s special fondue and Bunny had all the grapes.
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Then we had some more yummies: French onion soup for C…
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…and muscles for me.
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Then I returned a very reluctant C and Taylor back for their two afternoon classes and a very important group media presentation which C’s had to present and caused her tummy to break out in a bad case of butterflies.

But then it was over and we drove X-town, Adam, Kerstie, Bryson, Chloe and me, to Merchant’s Oyster Bar for supper. We were there but no Jonathan.
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Pastry chef Claire brought us some champagne. Not only is she beautiful but extremely talented and writes a wonderful food and craft blog liviasweets.com.
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Happy birthday clinks all round.
But still no Jonathan!
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Oh here he comes. What is he like?
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Lovely, crusty French bread was brought on a cutting board sprinkled with sel de fleur.
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And Jonathan ordered drinks, wine and 24 oysters.
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The oysters, especially with champagne mignonette spooned on them, were absolutely out of this world delicious.
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Kerstie, Adam and the babies had a holiday at Parksville over Easter and Kerstie told us stories of gathering fresh oysters at low tide and eating them right at the beach and, later, barbecuing them for supper.
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Claire came back and took more orders for some cold appies.
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Jonathan ordered albacore tuna poke, bison tartare and cold roasted beet salad.
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Then Jonathan ordered more wine and roasted bone marrow…
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… flat iron steak, confit pork belly, salmon, and two orders of scalloped potatoes.
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There was so much yummy food!
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Jonathan went to talk to some friends and restaurant patrons and that may have been the wrong time…
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…because just then Claire came with her amazing desert creations.
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We shared desert but, as the birthday girl, C got to lick the knife. (I know, I brought her up well!)
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We had the most amazing day/evening/togetherness fest and I just couldn’t stop taking photos of my beautiful three.
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The reason my heart beats, the loves on my life.
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I really, really wanted to write this post but I’m so moved that I’ve been staring at a blank page for an hour.

I dropped in on Dalyce’s book store today and, being my friend, she handed me a book she saved for me.

I didn’t even question her choice for me, she knows what I love, I had a good mooch, found more books, we had a little chat and off I went.

This evening I opened the book and it’s then when I realised what a treasure Dalyce gave me.

I’m absolutely humbled and speechless.

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I feel like I don’t deserve to own this book. Like I haven’t done enough in this world to warrant a book like this belonging to me.
It is extraordinary and has completely taken my breath away.

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It’s a 1941 book called 12 Million Black Voices written by Richard Wright with photographs by the most amazing photographers of the day including Walker Evans, Dorothea Lange and Arthur Rothstein.

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It is a simple book beautifully written in poetry with passion and love. Powerful and startling showing everything from joy and optimism…

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…to horrible poverty and despair, and the most horrible, gruesome, outrages injustices, (which I can’t bring myself to replicate).

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It is the story of the Great Depression and the migration of oppressed people.

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It is full of voices and faces which will never be forgotten. “Deep down in us,” the voices say, “we are glad that our children feel the world hard enough to yearn to wrestle with it.”

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Reading thru this book, seeing the faces, understanding…it’s life changing.

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Probably got too much sun today…

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I really do adore having a 100yr old house that creaks and groans. I’ve been out all day and just now the sun-warmed house is cooling down and popping and snapping its old bones and I have to tell it it’s loved just the perfectly imperfect way it is.

I stole gathered some hellebores from my mother’s garden and put them in a vase with some other little garden snippets and the evening sun lit them up so beautifully that I spent a happy few minutes photographing them. (I would have taken more time but I lost the light.)

Then I put my cheery little arrangement in the living room and the house creaked its appreciation rather loudly.

I’m looking at some of the photos and loosing myself in the beauty of the blossoms. These hellebores absolutely have to be painted immediately…well, maybe tomorrow. It’s evening and Morgan has missed me. She’s terrifically determined to replace the lap top on my lap. I’m stroking her soft fur and wondering how I might be able to spend the rest of my life happily photographing and drawing flowers.

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Long day. Do you ever have the feeling that it’s so nice to be home?

Is it just me or does it seem like there’s nothing daylight savings about daylight savings time?

Where is the daylight then?

These Vancouver winters really hit me in my wet little heart right about mid-March with incessant rain and gloom and rain and make me long for Mexico or Spain or anywhere warm and dry for 24 hours together.

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Today I’ve been all over town, all day, in the rain. Finally got home exhausted, with two feet of frizzy hair and wet shoes and turned the heat on.

I stood at the kitchen sink and waited for the large pot to fill up with water and looked at the English ivy.

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I swear it’s trying to take over the world. There must be something about the humidity or the warmth or the big kitchen window that this ivy just loves, or maybe it’s some spring fever ivy thing, because it’s growing like crazy, almost right before my eyes.

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There’s something about ivy in the house that I love, and it’s one of those “plants that will not die” which tend to be planted in the garden after they’ve outlived their interior usefulness or outgrown their pot. (Others just get composted, I know, I’m ruthless. It’s a make it or get composted kind of world.)

This ivy wants to grow into the sink. I suppose it has a good look at the surroundings and thinks, “hey, a big farm sink, loads of room to spread out there!” But it keeps getting its little tendrils singed.

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Tomorrow there is still a forecast for heavy rain, but tomorrow will be an easier day because I’ll be working from home. From my snug little studio.

Oh, and just realised there’s still half of the yummy Irish soda bread (with currents) left for breakfast. I’m starting to warm up already.

Hope your day was warmer and drier than mine, my little wet hearts. :)

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A lovely sunny Friday and then Friday blues! What?

Wow, the first rays of sunshine in the morning after a week of rain. Oh happy, happy day.
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Yummy strawberries for breakfast, what could be better?
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What’s this?

A deflated C?
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What’s up C? Even Morgan’s in a good mood.
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Oh, Friday afternoon women’s studies class plus midterm results.

No you can’t have a sunshine sick day.
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Taking some time for black water and silence

It’s so beautiful here today it makes my heart ache.
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I’ve been somewhat absent in my own life lately. It’s true! A week of setting myself on autopilot because things have to get done has finally taken a toll and today, when I drove C to her classes on her mountain-top university, I just kept driving further and further into the mountain.

I came to the little parking lot I was looking for, parked up and practically sprinted into the forest.

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I chose the trail to the lake but the sound of my footsteps on the crunchy gravely trail was bothering me so as soon as I could I left the pebbly path for the soft, mossy paths that skirts the lake. You’ll laugh but I even walked with my arms spread out somewhat so I wouldn’t hear that rustling noise that my down jacket makes. :)

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I didn’t expect many people to be on the trails on a drizzly day like today and good thing too because I had it in mind to be completely alone for a few hours. The moss dripped, the ground felt spongy and the whole forest glistened and twinkled with that spring freshness of temperate rain forests. There is an old Czech children’s book in my library. It was smuggled out of Prague along with me. It is a book of poetry and watercolours and the title translates as “slippers of moss”. I felt so small and soft in the forest beside the lake. I was wearing slippers of moss.

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At one of the shore access points I snuck up on some little thing and scared it half to death. Suddenly there was a frantic splash and a trail of bubbles leading away from me and disappearing among the dripping branches. To tell the truth, I think we scared each other.

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I sat by the lake for a long time watching a fisherman on the other side. Then a ripple. A small flock of mergansers landed close by and began arrowing their way towards me. There is nothing common about common mergansers. They are so beautiful to me with their rusty, crested heads and ghostly bodies.

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I didn’t dare breathe. I just sat still and quiet, blending into the forest and watching.

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They arrowed around dipping and surfacing until we all heard the sound of people talking and walking on the crunchy path. They rippled the blackness as they ran/flew away.

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I waited for a few minutes and, as soon as I was satisfied that my loud lake walkers were a good way away, I hiked out of the forest and back to the parking lot and got on with the rest of the day.

I feel so much better. Taking this time was so important and so necessary for my little wild heart. Sometimes I find myself wishing I could take you with me and feel the peace I feel. I hope you have a chance to take time for yourselves and rest your wild little hearts in your own special way. Then you can tell me about it. :)

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A special girl turns sweet sixteen 4842 miles away from home

My birthday is in the middle of July which meant I was always out of school and most of my friends were away and so was I, which meant that my party usually was a “mom and me” thing, usually somewhere in Europe, or where ever we were that July.

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Although I don’t have any feelings of being lonely, I did feel a teensy bit sorry for our lovely visiting girl turning sweet sixteen away from her family and, as there were only seven girls in her tour, we decided to have a birthday party and invite the whole bunch for a spaghetti supper, cake and a viewing of Pirates of the Caribbean (Ayaka’s favorite movie).

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Morgan, being “one of the girls” picked a chair and resolutely refused to leave the party. Each time I shooed her off she circled the table and jumped right back on her chair.

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I can’t tell you how wonderful it was to have a mass of giggling, laughing teens here and I think the energy was really good for the spirit of the house especially after the disaster and during the full-swing-ahead renovations.

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Little prezzies were given and received,

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The cake was lit and brought in to much cheer and applause. A very loud and rousing Happy Birthday was sung and the candles were blown out.

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And everyone was settled under comfy quilts in the library to watch their movie.

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A lovely evening and wonderful memories were made today. Memories of a sweet sixteen, a first time alone away from home, a first time in a foreign country, and of good, loving friends.

How many times have I transplanted my grandfather’s bleeding hearts?

From garden to garden, from house to house, for years.

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But each spring I know they will come up and my house, which ever house I’m in, that house feels like home.

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Round here on a Monday morning

Everything is gray and it’s a bit chilly in the house. I didn’t sleep very well last night and I think the barometric pressure has dropped because I’m feeling a bit headachy. Everyone is out except for the cats and me and I’m just hanging around today.

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Hanging around like a little kimono-bear and I’m all snuggled up in my father’s old sweater, which I’m wearing to death.

Everybody is snuggled up. Morgan is with me in a basket under the kitchen table and Milo has wiggled his way under a blanket on the sofa where he’s likely to stay till late afternoon.

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I made myself a second cup of tea in one of the bowls I brought from France. It’s a clever thing to drink your tea from French bowls. You need to use both hands at the start and this makes you lovely and warm, and by the time the bowl is light enough to hold with one hand, you’re feeling rather French and chic. Look at you French girl with that French bowl in your hand. Très sexy.

I’m contemplating planting the last of the paper whites today but also have that “I can’t be bothered” feeling. I’m looking at some paper whites already sprouting happily in a pot and just now I had this thought: “Who will live and who will die?” Oh god, I can’t believe I’m thinking of a series of paintings of bulbs. But first I want to finish the map I started before Christmas.

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Yesterday I got the loveliest email from Japan from the parents of a charming girl staying with us for ten weeks. Bless their hearts. It made me get all teary reading it. I’ll post it for you. Today the mail came and in it the water rates bill, (groan). That reminds me: time for some good mail. I think I’ll finish my tea writing to some friends and before I know it good mail will be coming my way.

Oh and good mail can come your way from me if you like. Steps you have to take include: emailing me your addy so I can send you something and entering my giveaway so I can send you lots of somethings.

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Much love to you my friends and thank you so much for the lovely comments you’ve been leaving for me on Saturday’s post. I want to reply to each and every one of you but can’t because of this random generator thing. (Actually will have to delete my comments first) I’m the luckiest girl to have you in my life, my warm and supportive friends.

A little email from Japan:

Hello. This time there is a relationship in the situation called the host family and has you keep it, and thank you for daughter.
As a matter of course, it is the first time that she lives apart from a family for a long term, and there is the problem of words (the linguistic ability is low, too), and the daughter feels it when she will live a life in strain and the uneasiness.
I want to entrust all it to Veronika (as for the period of the homestay) during this short-term studying abroad period.

I think that I learn most including the importance of the family, the splendor of the relation with the person and the warmth of the person by living I am separated from a family life.
The eldest daughter stays in the same way in Canada (Vancouver) three years ago, too and feels it when I grow up in a good meaning and came home.

Is a daughter naive by all means, but is a glance same as a family; if have spend it, is happy. I believe that I think that it was very lucky that Veronika became the host family of the daughter heartily.
Remaining period, daughter, thanking you in advance.

*p.s : We live in the place called Uji of Kyoto, Japan. It is enrolled in a world heritage, and, on the immediate side of the house, there is “Byodo-in Temple” which is drawn on the Japanese currency coin, and it is in a sightseeing spot.

When I come to Japan by sightseeing by all means, I feel very glad if I have you drop in.
I am sorry that dispatch of mail was late deeply.

If anything happens, please transmit an email to this e-mail address willingly anytime.

Excuse me.

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(couldn’t you just die? so sweet!)

A fourth journal entry for Folk Magazine with love and understanding.

The Folk Magazine Journal entry for this week asks for influence. To write my American story as part of a giant American story, the tapestry of our lives, in honor of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Day.

I’m Czech by birth, German by heritage, Canadian by chance, British by choice. My Austrian grandfather was in love with Vancouver, the land, the ocean, the mountains and, when it was evident that our family would not be safe in Russian occupied Prague, my grandfather decided we would immigrate to Canada and here I am. I have a dual citizenship and speak several languages. I’ve lived in Europe, (Paris, Geneva, Austria, Prague and now Oxfordshire UK) for very long stretches of time so I can say that while Canada is my country, Europe is generally my home town.

I must say that I don’t know a lot about American history. I know of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. but only understand his basic premises and I hope that’s enough for me to talk about what I would like to talk about in this post.

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I have a story, a beautiful American story to tell.

Over twenty years ago, my then husband and I drove down the American Pacific coast on holiday. I was pregnant with my last child and so over the top emotional…you know how that goes. We were at Fisherman’s Warf in San Francisco and I just stepped out of the car when a man ran past me shoving me violently into the side of the car and another man ran past me directly after him chasing him with a knife. I was shaking and completely inconsolable and we got back into the car and drove to Oakland to the hotel we were staying in.

I gathered my strength after several hours, and after much persuasion, and seeing the lights at the Oakland Coliseum, we decided to go to the baseball game.

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Now please know and understand that I was never, NEVER, EVER going to set foot in San Francisco ever again. But then we found our seats and beside us were the most wonderful, loveliest, most loving people I had ever met in my life. Some of them invited us to stay with them, all of them sympathised and many told us of the wonderful and beautiful San Francisco I had given up and abandoned forever without ever giving it a chance.

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So this brings me to my MLK Jr. story. It’s so important to know and understand your whole community, everyone, whoever they are. Look thru understanding and loving eyes. Having been a political refugee, an immigrant and living as I do in different parts of the world, I come across prejudice sometimes but I truly think that, by knowing and accepting without judgement people of all nationalities, races, sexual orientation, religious/or not persuasion and welcoming them into my life, these prejudices can be dispelled and the vitriol neutralised.

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What would I do without my writing group Wordsmith Studio, (mostly made up of American members) who support me and love me and accept my quirky ways? Where would I be without my Seattle friends and closest American neighbours who I impose on each year? Who would I be without those generous Oakland A’s fans who held my hand and helped make San Francisco one of my most favorite and romantic places to visit?

So, on this third Monday in January, I would like to wish a Happy MLK Jr. Day to my lovely and loved American friends, I’m so happy you are all in my life. I hope to keep learning your stories and continue to be a part of the tapestry of America in my own Canadian way.

Journal 1 entry here, journal 2 here, journal 3 here.

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